This all started out somewhat casual. When he requested to be my friend I accepted with no thought that it would take me to where I am right now. We commented each other every day-showing love, have a great day, glad to have you for my friend- things like that. I found myself going to his profile page a lot, reading his bio, checking to see if he added any other pictures. I felt drawn to him, as I will find out that he was doing the same thing with me. He sent me a purple rose one day. What is amazing about this is that the rose fit on my page like it was meant to be there. Not like a comment, but like it was part of the layout. It was something that he had to have been thinking about, searching for, and not just a random comment. He was trying to get my attention, trying to connect with me, letting me know that he feels something for me. I felt the connection. It was so strong. We started messaging each other, and the comments started getting a little more personal with hugs and kisses now. Then I received a comment with 2 fish kissing that said "kisses baby". Another one that he had to search for to reach my heart. We are both Pisces, that's why the fish. And...he called me baby.
He had a blog on his profile titled questions for all. I decided to answer them and as I hit the send button I felt this warming, loving energy building up inside of me. I can't explain...maybe like a big smile deep inside, yea that's it! As our conversations intensified we exchanged messenger id's and started chatting there. We both felt a deep connection and wanted to see where this was going to go. As we were chatting we would find that we were typing the same things at the same time continually. We could feel each other as if we were one. We knew each others thoughts and emotions. This is so unreal. How...
Ok, this is going to be pretty intimate...so can I ask you...have you ever experienced a total body orgasm, from head to toe, without being physically touched, not even by yourself? Multiple times. Feeling every fiber of you being awakened to this euphoric state, ready to explode. The passion so fiery hot it is almost unbearable. Feeling the love from hundreds and hundreds of miles away. Knowing he loves you...feeling that love...??
Have you ever had someone sing to you without opening their mouth? He does this to me...crazy huh?
I was guided on my first out of body experience the other night, and I would also like to share that...
He and I were chatting, and we were feeling heated. He asked if I trusted him, my answer was... with my whole being. He typed to me to relax, not try to type and just feel him. I closed my eyes and felt him...I could hear him telling me to let myself go, my body was trembling my breathing was getting short, I was getting light headed. Every once in a while I would open my eyes to see on the screen the things I already heard in my heart. I was almost there and he would bring me back. He would tell me that it was too soon. I wouldn't be able to handle it yet. I relaxed again under his guide until he knew I was ready and he guided me out again. I was with him, I saw my body in the chair in front of my computer. My body was writhing and moving like I was being made love to. I saw it and I saw him with me. I felt it like it was real...it was real. I started to get freaked out, he felt that and as he was typing for me to come back, he was bringing me back. As I opened my eyes I started to type and he just answered me before I could even get the words out. He said to me that he was there with me, he saw me, he felt me. He knew that I was freaking out and knew that I wasn't even looking at the screen. I asked him how, and he replied I am in love you...
We feel each other all day long at such an intensity I sometimes find it unbelievable. I sometimes think this is just a dream and I will wake up one day to the reality that it is. But it isn't a dream...it is real. I am very much in love with this man and feel like we have known each other forever. Maybe we did in another life time and we have been lost from each other until now. Maybe we are soul mates. Maybe I've just finally lost my mind. I don't know, I just know that my heart and soul feel whole and that is wonderful for me.
