Soul Mates

Do you believe in soul mates? A good friend of mine said the following...

"I don't know if soul mates exist. I think one soul can recognize another. Maybe wherever it is we begin from contains us all in such a way that we recognize those we hung out with when we come across them. I think there's a definite "I know you," feeling that people can have when they stumble across another soul they recognize, whether it's a potential partner or potential friend. Some people you meet and you just feel like you've already known them all your life. Other people you've known all your life and still, you feel like you've never really known them. Has to be some underlying reason for that. Maybe it isn't a soul thing, but I attribute some of it to that.

I think that there's something about being human that does leave some sort of void or hole within our psyche or soul or being or whatever you want to call it. I think people try to fill it with all sorts of things from drugs, to God, to love, to a child. I think that even when we manage to find whatever it is that we think fills that space, that there is still a part that remains unfilled.

Maybe that's because we need more than one thing to fill it. Maybe we need partners, friendships, children, the divine (by whatever name), and who knows what else. But I think that we need something that we don't ever really grasp until we leave this plane - or as we're about to leave this plane. Maybe we leave that part of ourselves behind when we come into this existence. I don't know. But I do think that the stronger we fill this empty space, the harder we try to fill it - and that's where people let obsessions and addictions get the better of them, trying too hard to fill that space with something. Anything."

What do you think?

Flood of emotions

Today I was checking out some of the accounts that I haven't checked in a few days. I came across a comment left on my husbands page from his ex. My first reaction was pissed off. I didn't like the fact that someone else was professing her love for him. Immediately following was disappointment in the fact that he hadn't deleted her as a friend. I felt that he wasn't taking my feelings into account. Jealousy of course had to pop it's thought in my head for a moment. Sadness rushed through me thinking that maybe they are supposed to be together and not us. What is meant to be will always be, and no matter how much in love with him I am, I can't change that. If he is meant to be with this other woman I hope they are both happy. Then I felt that horrible knot in my heart wondering if he still felt the same way for her. For an instance I felt panic, after all we have never met, how can I even ask him to commit to me.

I started to calm down as I felt, from 1600 miles away, my husbands love for me. I know without a doubt that he is in love with me, and I am in love with him. I am confident in the knowledge that we are going to be together to infinity and beyond. One day it will happen and that is fact.

I love you baby...xxx

Long Distance Love

I have been in a long distance relationship with a wonderful man for 7 months now. Even though we have never met, we know that we belong together. We talk online and on the phone every single day, sometimes all day. Thank goodness for cell phones...hehehe. We go shopping with each other, watch tv together, interact with the others family, we are always connected. He even stays with me when I fall asleep. We do the best that we can do with what we have. Yes, we wish that it was different and that we could be together, but it just isn't possible at this time and we know that when the time is right it will happen.

There are times when it gets frustrating, I can't say it doesn't. Wanting and needing to be there physically to hold each other when there are bad days. Or when you always need that one extra hand to get things done. We are supporting each other in any way that we can, but is that enough? It doesn't matter if it is enough or not, it's what we have right now and it will have to do. Positive thinking and believing that we will be together soon is what keeps us going. Right now both of our families are going through some tough times. This is the hardest part of being 1600 miles away from each other.

There is a tremendous amount of trust that needs to be shared in a long distance relationship. In reality, you don't know what the other person is doing or who they are spending their time with. If you are in love with each other then you have to trust what they tell you is the truth. There will no doubt be random thoughts that enter your mind as to if their commitment to you is as strong as yours is to him/her. Yes, you do have to be cautious, but I tend to follow my soul. You have only this moment to live your life to the fullest and be as happy as you can be. If you feel that warm fuzzy feeling when you hear his/her voice and a big smile starts growing inside of you, how can that be wrong. If you can have a conversation without saying a word to each other, who can tell you that it's not real. You have to own your emotions, your feelings. Do what makes you feel good. Live your life for yourself because no one else can do that for you. Believe in your dreams and they will come true.

Where are the answers?

As a parent, you want the best for your children. You teach them right from wrong and they must know that there will be consequences for every action that they take. You believe that you have done the best that you can do and that one day they will grow into fine human beings. You watch them as they grow and there are many proud moments in your life. But somehow, somewhere, you must not have done something right. Your adult child is very unhappy. So unhappy, you fear for him. He calls you crying that he just doesn't want to wake up anymore. He hates his life and doesn't know how to change the way he feels. You wonder why he is so unhappy, why does he think his life is shit. He has a good job, a nice cozy apartment, a vehicle, and a family that loves him immensley. There is something so deep inside him that you aren't able to reach and pull out of him. You are helpless. How did he get to be this way? Why can't he figure out whatever it is that is making him feel like this? Why can't you just make it better, make it go away? Why does your child have to suffer?

This hurts too much to write, I don't know how to help him...