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To talk and talk and talk without being heard is one of the most frustrating things for me. To try and help and give advice from experience for it only to fall on deaf ears makes me just want to shut up. I don't know, maybe it's the hormones, or so I would like to believe, but being frustrated all the time is no good.

I want to be able to say what's on my mind. I want to express my feelings, my thoughts, my concerns. I want it to be acknowledged. I don't want to have to keep repeating myself, but if I do, then I want that not to irritate me so much. I want to talk without having to dissect what I want to say in fear someone might be offended. I don't like to offend people, I don't try to offend people. But it seems like everything that comes out of my mouth offends someone. I just want to be able to not worry about it so much. I don't say a lot of things that I think because I don't want to offend someone. I just keep it all to myself and pretend it is none of my business. But if it affects me, then doesn't it become my business? Or if it is my problem that it affects me, then shouldn't it be their problem if it offends them? Shouldn't we be able to say what's on our minds? Shouldn't we be able to correct someone if they are wrong, without them being offended? Or should we just live in a bubble all alone so there is no chance of ever offending anyone?

Wordless Wednesday (A Little Different)

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What are you thankful for...

At this time of the year I find myself thinking about all the many things that I am thankful for. The obvious is my family, my health, my friends. Having a roof over my head, food in my belly, and clothes on my back are also obvious things to be thankful for. The things that we tend to take for granted is what this is about. I would like to hear from you what things you take for granted that you are thankful for.

On Fire

The heat rushes into me, I pick my phone up, look at the time, uh huh, 4:something am. Same as the night before, and the night before, and the night before that. I throw the blankets off of me to try and get cooled down. I want to jump in a tub of ice until my whole body is frozen. The heat is suffocating, I can't breathe, I can't sleep, my inside body temperature feels like it is boiling, this is ridiculous! It feels like it lasts forever, but it is only a few minutes and then the chills start from being exposed to the air. I pull the blankets back over me and start to snuggle back up to try and get a little more sleep. I really don't like this stage of my life.

Wordless Wednesday (How to Survive a Zombie Apocalypse)